Jul 8: Off Topic: Film Hacksaw Ridge

This ties in to seizures and being a caregiver. Read on.

I have a list of movies that I want to watch when I get a chance. It keep getting longer, despite me keeping a tablet or TV constantly running something. 

Tonight, while browsing a streaming service for a title off my 'someday' list, I noticed 'Hacksaw Ridge' was finally available in my price range. Free.

Started it up for the noise and background entertainment while I worked on Weslee's pills for the week. Have to admit: I had to keep pausing it because I was sobbing so hard that I couldn't see the pill bottles in front of me.

Got me thinking a lot about wars, killing, and death. Naturally, my never-quiet-mind went there.

My inner dialogue:

Me.1: We were taught that killing was wrong.

Me.2: True, but what about 'holy wars' and the 'crusades'?

Me.1: Maybe some killing is ok? Dad was in the military. So was my current husband, and my wonderful nephew who has PTSD.

Me.2: Can I reconcile that in my heart? In my soul?

Me.1: Peeta, a character from The Hunger Games, had a great line when asked .. "so you won't kill?"  He responds, "I'm sure I will, like anybody else".

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As a mom of an epileptic young man who came seconds away from death in 2019, I fight hard every day to keep him alive. Surgeries. Doc appointments. Medications. Raising money. Favorite treats. Movies. Books about writing to keep his mind active. A/C to get him comfy. Taking the tantrums on the chin. PTSD.

Don't ask me if I would kill to save him.

You might not like my answer.

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ETA: I realize this post sounded a bit harsh so let me say a few more things...

• I loved loved loved this movie. I have since watched it another 7-8 times, seen over 10 "first time watching .. reacting" YoupTube vids, and sobbed each time.
• I didn't have a problem with the killing, explosions, or the cruelty of the story. It depicts war, of course, and those are very much a part of war. I had a problem with the hypocrisy of christianity vs murder/killing.
• Andrew Garfield was the only actor possible for this role. I still get goosebumps when his character converses with God before he hears someone calling out for a medic, and thus began his "one more" scene.
• Vince Vaughn and the other cast members were also incredibly talented. I didn't spot even a smidge of overacting. Amazing considering how many background actors participated.
• Mel Gibson is a visionary.  I am very sure he heard about what this Mr. Doss did... then it sat and niggled and tickled his mind, practically fully formed.

OK. I think that's it for now.

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